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January 31st, 2012


I once had a job as a killer.  Funny, but I never thought of it like that until now, 60 years later.  I had no sooner gotten my job with a pathologist at Argonne National Laboratory in Chicago than I found out I was pregnant.  Very early in the pregnancy I started to bleed and started cry, thinking I had perhaps lost the baby.   That was another funny thing.  Until then I hadn’t realized that at some visceral level I cared about – wanted – that baby.   But – back to the job.

My boss, Dr. Cloudman, was doing experiments studying the effects of various carcinogens on white mice.  The only two carcinogens I remember being involved were methylcholanthrene and yttrium 88.  Part of my job was to examine all the mice in the cages every day and keep a record of tumor growths, making diagrams of tumor locations and size.   When I noticed that a mouse’s ears, usually pink, had turned white, that meant it was bleeding internally and I had to kill it.  It is very easy to kill a mouse.  You just grab its tail, hold the dull edge of your scalpel at the base of its skull, and pull on the tail.  This breaks its neck and you have a dead mouse.

The doctor would then autopsy the mouse and give me tissue samples which I would imbed, section with a microtome, mount on slides and stain.  Doctor would read the slides and record his findings.   I had no idea, then, what he learned from his studies,  but I see from his archives that he moved to Argonne National Laboratory in 1947, the year that I married, and some of his publications are on line.

It did not bother me, to kill a mouse.  It was my job.  Because of this job, I can understand how people can work in an abortion clinic and hardly think about what they are doing.  Its just a job.   Dr. Bernard Nathanson, the narrator in the following video, The Silent Scream, was a killer, too.  As a  gynecologist in New York City he was responsible for thousands of abortions, was founder of the National Abortion Rights Action League, and even aborted his own child. Filmed in 1980, The Silent Scream was ground-breaking in that it showed for the first time, using ultrasound, what goes on during an abortion. Back then ultrasound was a new tool, and grainy compared to today’s ultrasound pictures, but for the first time one could actually see the unborn child quietly moving around in the uterus, then the agitation when it senses invasion of its sanctuary, and then the silent open-mouthed scream in its final agony. And no one is more compentent to talk about it than Dr. Nathanson.

Nathanson finally understood  what really  happens during an abortion, saw hundreds of Operation Rescue people blocking abortion mills, praying and singing, and became the most influential pro-life gynecologist ever. He authored several books describing this journey, became a Christian and then a Catholic. Dr. Nathanson died this past year. May he rest in peace.

January 28th, 2012


Seventeen-year-old Caitlin McInnis has made a short film with a strong pro-life message called The Letter. A home-schooler, she got the idea for the film after watching the movie, Bella. She proves that creativity, talent and a message that goes to the heart don’t need a multi-million-dollar budget to reach a receptive audience.

Help it to get around. It deserves a wider audience. It is needed by a wider audience.


Read more.

I realize that youngsters are very technologically savvy these days, but this little gem of a video is both technologically and artistically impressive.  Though a teenager, Caitlin has the heart of a woman who can understand how an abortion can tear a heart apart. There are many, many women who have actually suffered abortions but have been able to find help and healing in ministries such as Rachel’s Vineyard and Silent No More.


For thou didst form my inward parts; thou didst knit me together in my mother’s womb.  — Psalm 139:13

January 3rd, 2012


LifeSiteNews (out of Canada) is a remarkable source of pro-life news, the following being one from the top ten stories of 2011.

They have also, simultaneously, published the top ten Culture of Life Stories of 2011.

This story caught my eye, because I should never have had seven children!

October 21, 2011 ( – A few months back, I told my readers on my blog how to raise eight children without even trying. Today, I’m going to tell you why I never should have had eight children in the first place: had I listened to the devil and modern conventional wisdom, that is.

When I was a happy mother of four, seriously considering and deeply desiring another child, an odd feeling overcame me. Over several days, my excitement at the idea of a new little soul became mixed with feelings of discouragement and fear. It began to dawn on me that I was barely good enough “mommy material” for the four treasures I already had, and that any further parenting would be irresponsible. It came to a head one evening: I remember standing in my kitchen, full of fear and anxiety, telling myself that I had no business – no business! – having another baby. Not now, not ever.

All my shortcomings and sins came to the forefront of my mind, and I stood there reeling from the truth of it:

I can’t cook.
I can’t grocery shop.
I can’t bring the kids out alone without help.
I have nooooo patience.
I am not crafty in the least.
I can’t sew.
I can’t throw a party.
I’m not athletic or outdoorsy.
I don’t know how to make a pretty home.
I don’t know how to make anything fun.
I am lazy and a procrastinator.
I’m used to being served, not serving.
I am sarcastic and cranky.
I am a complainer.
I like to be alone.
I hate to be interrupted or inconvenienced.
I am not particularly good with children.

In that moment, I knew all of these things. And I was discouraged. Any one of these reasons could be enough for a woman to convince herself that it’s imprudent to have another child. In fact, you might just be saying to yourself now, “My gosh, that woman shouldn’t have one child, much less eight!”

But see, there’s the thing: Moms of big families are told constantly by other women that “I couldn’t do what you do!” or “You must have so much patience!” or “You must have a real way with children!” They think we were given a special gift or have a mutant gene that they do not possess. But they have no idea how much we are just like them. In fact, most of the women who say those things to me are better suited to raise a large family than I.

As I stood there in the kitchen that night, a moment of grace overtook the moment of discouragement. How many times had I told others, “Discouragement is not from Christ, as Christ only encourages. Discouragement is from the devil!” I remembered it then, and my fears and anxieties were banished. Only the devil himself, the one who hates human beings to his rotten core, would taunt me with the notion that my lack of gourmet skills should preclude new life in my marriage. I saw the evil of it then, and I called him out. I still cussed a lot back then, and I am pretty sure I told the devil what he could do with his putrid flood of discouraging thoughts. Yeah, that was a good moment.

Since that day, five eternal souls have been created in our family, four of whom my husband and I have the privilege of raising on this earth. And, while I can’t claim to have conquered all the deficiencies and vices on my list (not even close! drat!), the existence of all my children has moved me along the path of holiness. Because that’s how it works: The souls in your life are gifts, each of whom is meant to sanctify you in a particular way. My little sanctifiers are the artisans who change and mold me in all the ways God knows I need, and they are their father’s and their siblings’ artisans, too.

That my family exists as it does is living proof that “with God, all things are possible” – even Leila Miller mothering eight great kids.

Deo gratias.

Waste no time. Go right now to the amazing and true tales of folks who dared to choose life, even when it wasn’t easy.    Each one is more heartwarming and inspiring than the previous one!

Thank you, Life Site News, for helping us look beyond the immediate “problem” and helping us see that God, after all is said and done, seems to know what he is doing.

December 10th, 2011


Speaking from Prayer Town TX, outside of Amarillo, where he has been since September, Father Pavone gives an update on his status as a priest and as leader of Priests for Life.

December 5th, 2011


The 7 billionth baby was born last month. I posted this  ‘factoid’ on Facebook a few days ago in view of the ever-ongoing push to limit births by promoting abortion and contraception, especially in Third World countries, a disdain for large families, and an almost palpable fear of “too many people”  on our itty-bitty Earth.

Too many people? Not enough room? “… the world’s population could fit in the State of Texas. Texas encompasses 268,581 square miles. Based on world population figures from July 2011, the world’s population is approximately 6,973,570,000. This means that one person would have nearly 1,074 square feet to live in the State of Texas, or live in a density somewhat similar to New York.” — Human Life International


The following article was published in 1994.   I thought it was already on my blog but I can’t find it anywhere!  So, because it is still just as relevant, I post it now.


Several years ago I came across something I found hard to believe. I read that you could put all the people in the whole world in the state of Texas and each person would have 1500 square feet all to himself! I got out my World Almanac and my encylopedia and set to work. It took awhile. I had to remember how to turn square miles into square feet and how many zeroes in a billion. But, in the end, it was true. Everyone could live in Texas and we could use the rest of the world as a playground and a breadbasket.

Writer James Sedlak recently had some fun with the everybody-in-Texas idea. He recalled his family homestead, a four bedroom house on a 4500 square foot lot. There are now 5.5 billion people in the world and there are 262,840 square miles of dry land in Texas. If everyone were in a family of four and lived in a simlar home, the parents could share a bedroom, each child could have his own room, and there would be a nice guest room remaining in each home. His conclusion: “We could fit the entire population [of the world] in the state of Texas and have up to 1,375,000,000 spare bedrooms!”

One might get the impression from the media hype that there are so many people on earth that they are about to fall off the planet. If you’ve ever flown over our great country, however, and seen the vast emptiness, it is obvious there is room for many, many more Americans. But surely, one might say, they must be elbow-to-elbow in China where families are forcibly limited to one child.    Actually, although China is the most populous nation in the world, the population density in China is about the same as that in Pennsylvania. My own state of Connecticut, as well as Massachusetts and New Jersey,  are each three times as densely populated as China.

Well, one could argue, if there is plenty of room it must be that there is not enough food. In 1968 Paul Ehrlich’s book, The Population Bomb predicted that in the 1970s hundreds of millions of people were going to starve to death. World population has increased but even in the Third World the average person is better fed than in 1968. Never in all of history have so many lived so high on the hog. Never have so many complained of obesity as their major health problem.

Since 1977 world food production has surpassed population growth. Colin Clark, former director of the Agricultural Economic Institute estimated that using modern agricultural methods an “American-type diet” could be provided to 35 billion people, or a Japanese-type diet to three times that many people. Contrary to Ehrlich’s prediction, life expectancy in developed as well as undeveloped countries has continued to increase, and China and India are now among the leading exporters of food.

The doomsayers claim that we already have too many people. However, it has long been noted as a demographic truth that when national prosperity increases, national fertility decreases. Procreation has been called the poor man’s recreation. Perhaps prosperity permits other diversions. Perhaps it results in better education,  more women in careers, later marriages and postponement of childbearing. Perhaps with economic security parents do not feel they need the security of many children. Whatever the mechanisms, history shows that as per-capita income increases, per-family birth rate decreases.

There are, surely,  terrible areas of squalor and hunger. There are greedy people who rape the land, pollute the water, exploit the poor, and hug their plenitude to themselves. The problem is not one of lack of space, or food, or resources, or a need for better contraception and more abortions. The problem is one of unmitigated selfishness on the one hand and the lack of love on the other. Greed sacrifices people, love sacrifices for people. The problem is not what too many people are doing to society, but what society is doing to too many people.

G. K. Chesterton said that Christianity has not been tried and found wanting; rather, it has not been tried. Gandhi said that if Christians practiced Christianity there would be no Hindus in India. And, I might add, no poverty, no homelessness, no starvation. Christians with more than they need would aid their neighbors in distress.

The world powers, all of which have birth rates below replacement level, are pouring millions into programs to decrease the fertility of Third World countries. Often they will only provide aid to undeveloped countries on the condition that they accept programs urging contraception, sterilization, and abortion.

Imagine, as has happened in India, requiring villagers to accept family planning, primarily in the form of vasectomies, in exchange for a village well! Some feminists have criticized population control programs which use economic coercion to limit women’s reproductive choices. According to Pope John Paul II such programs can easily become “a substitute for justice and development” in undeveloped countries.

Since we do not know what tomorrow holds, who can say that less is better? We are seeing unprecedented hurricanes, tornadoes, floods and earthquakes. We have conquered some diseases  that used to be killers, but they have been replaced by new ones. AIDS is certainly not contained. Our old bacteria are developing new strains which are resistant to antibiotics. An epidemic of infertility has become evident, largely attributable to contraceptives, abortion, and sexually transmitted diseases which no one ever heard of until recently. We still might, God forbid, endure a nuclear holocaust. We are not likely to have seen the last of war.

God knows what is to come, we don’t. How do we come to the decision that ideally population growth should stop, right now, by whatever method, even if it means killing the unborn, even if it requires permission from the government to bear a child (as has been suggested).

In closing, I will let Malcolm Muggeridge make my point. Consider, he says, “the amazingly ludicrous spectacle ot twenty-three million Canadians in an enormous country full ot unexploited wealth, boasting with great satisfaction that they’ve achieved a zero birthrate. Even more hilariously funny, so funny that one wonders if it isn’t God’s special blackboard to hold up to us the infinite follies of mankind, are those nine million Australians who cling tenaciously to a tiny bit of the coastline of a huge continent and praise the Lord for having achieved a zero birthrate.” (Eighty percent of Australians live within 50 miles of the ocean!)

Yes, even as I write, my local newspaper features an AP release in which ecologist David Pimentel says we should slash the world population to 2 billion and limit familes worldwide to an average of 1.5 children. Well, as I said, this article is presented as another perspective. If we are indeed on the eve of destruction it is not from too many peiple but from too little love.

October 27th, 2011


Father Frank Pavone of Priests for Life and Mark Crutcher of Life Dynamics have, for years, been in the forefront of the fight to save the lives of innocent unborn babies. We who know them well are confused and worried about Father Pavone’s recent recall to the Diocese of Amarillo. It would be nice to have one more video to add to these three, telling us all is well. The last we heard about Bishop Zurek was that he had requested to see Fr. Pavone on October 13.

AMARILLO, Texas (CNA/EWTN News) — The Diocese of Amarillo confirmed that despite an invitation from Bishop Patrick Zurek, Father Frank Pavone did not meet with him on Oct. 13 and has instead asked for mediation.

“I advised Father Frank not to have this private meeting until the process of mediation is underway,” Father David Deibel, canon lawyer for Father Pavone and Priests for Life, said in an Oct. 14 statement

Mark Crutcher on Father Pavone

Father Pavone speaks out (Part 1)

Father Pavone speaks out (Part 2)


Mark Crutcher of Life Dynamics
Setting the Record Straight
October 7, 2011
Contrary to what some of his supporters contend, not everyone who criticizes Barack Obama is a racist. The fact is, unless these Obama apologists are complete morons, they know that this is nonsense – even while they are in the midst of making the charge. It’s a shabby little game in which the “race card” is deployed as a way to cut off any criticism of Obama.
There is a parallel phenomenon in the Christian community and, in recent days, I have seen it first hand as a result of my defense of Father Pavone. Because I have helped to expose the contemptible actions taken against him by his bishop, the “anti-Catholic” card is now being played against me.
Let me be perfectly clear about this. While the people doing this are certainly entitled to their own beliefs, they are not entitled to their own facts. Here is just a tiny part of what they are conveniently leaving out of the equation.
Since I started Life Dynamics, well over half my employees have been Catholic, including three of my personal assistants. The attorney who represents us is Catholic. The majority of our donors are Catholic, and the only person I have ever given authority to make major decisions for Life Dynamics other than me is Catholic.
In addition to Priests for Life, I also work hand in hand with groups like Human Life International (HLI), American Life League, Pro-Life Action League and numerous other Catholic organizations. I was very close to HLI founder, Father Paul Marx, and remained in regular contact with him until his death. It may also surprise some to know that Father Marx was a faithful and long-time donor to Life Dynamics. In 2002, I received the first annual Cardinal Von Galen Award from HLI and, in 2004, I was given the Cardinal O’Connor Pro-Life Hall of Fame Award by Legatus. I was also given the 2009 Blogger of the Year award by American Life League.
Moreover, I have consistently made it clear that the Catholic Church and its associated organizations were on the frontlines of the pro-life battle when the vast majority of my fellow Southern Baptists were perfectly comfortable looking the other way. I have also shown no reluctance to publicly defend the Catholic Church or state that, without its commitment to this cause, there would have never even been a pro-life movement.
I could go much further down this track, but the point is that these efforts to portray me as “anti-Catholic” are absurd and despicable. The people doing this are motivated by the fact that I do not ascribe to the view that the Catholic hierarchy, or any other church’s hierarchy, is to be installed upon a pedestal and given authority that is absolute and beyond scrutiny. In their minds, that makes me “anti-Catholic” in the same way that criticizing Obama’s stimulus plan makes someone a racist in the minds of some hardcore Obamanistas.
In fairness, it should be noted that self-pious bigotry is not a disease that only infects Catholics. Over the years, many non-Catholics have felt the need to call my office and warn me that if I continue to associate with Catholics – or as they describe them, “that cult of cloven-hoofed heretics” – I will eventually find myself with a window seat on the Hell Bound Express. Regrettably, a couple of these nitwits have checked in with me in the last couple of days. It seems they are quite amused that a bunch of Catholics would like to see me rotating over a low flame because of my aggressive defense of a Catholic priest.
The irony about this is that none of these people would now be attacking me if I had simply abandoned Father Frank when Bishop Zurek dropped him in the grease. Of course, it may not be ironic at all. It could be that it reflects the simple reality that these people are just opposite sides of the same coin – though both would become enraged at such a suggestion.
Before closing, I want to bring up a couple of other issues. First, notice how quiet the pro-choice mob is being. Obviously, these people understand the concept that when your enemy is in self-destruct mode, the smartest thing to do is keep your mouth shut. My prediction is that, once all of this is resolved, they will have plenty to say.
Second, I can assure you that if the things that are going on behind the scenes of this regrettable situation are ever made public, the people who are now blindly defending Bishop Zurek are going to be stunned at what they learn. I can also assure you that these revelations will not be coming from me.
Finally, I want to make you aware of an interesting phone call I received yesterday. It was from Dr. Levon Yuille who is an African-American pastor in Michigan and unwavering defender of the unborn. He told me that, a couple of years ago, he was giving a speech at a pro-life banquet and that, afterward, he was milling around chatting with a small group of attendees. He said that he can’t remember why but, for some reason, Father Frank’s name came up. At some point in the conversation, he said this well-dressed woman standing nearby suddenly blurted out that, “Father Pavone is getting too big for his britches and we’re going to take him down.”
Dr. Yuille said he found this incident bizarre but that he had forgotten about it until he heard what Bishop Zurek was doing. After some discussion, we both concluded that it is a long shot to assume that her statement and this situation are related. But who knows?


October 10th, 2011


As a former member of Operation Rescue it is my impression that 40 Days for Life is the effective continuance of that nationwide effort to save the lives of unborn babies scheduled for abortion. Prayer is the weapon that blesses both those inside the abortion mill as well as those outside. Prayer is the weapon that changes hearts and changes lives, that saves babies and converts clinic workers so they “can’t do that anymore.”

This year 40 Days for Life is active in over 300 cities in the United States and in foreign countries. Here Shawn Carney and David Bereit in Helena, Montana, tell how it all started and how far they have come in just a few years. Why not just pray at home? Why pray, even in the rain? Does it really make a difference?

This is an inspiring video. Please listen.

We can pray more than we have been praying. Pray for mothers, pray for babies, pray for abortion workers, pray for more people praying. Seek your heart and ask God what he wants you to sacrifice for 40 days in order to save lives and close abortion clinics.

October 4th, 2011


I’d call this hard-hitting. It speaks for itself. Michael Voris is not one to mince words!

Letter from Archbishop Timothy Dolan of New York to President Obama
written “with a growing sense of urgency.”

September 26th, 2011


Do you know who Adolf Hitler was? Many people today haven’t a clue.
Was there really a holocaust? Was it wrong? Why?
Is there really an abortion holocaust? When is abortion right? Why?
Do you think there is a God? Is there a hell? Where will you go when you die?

This is a powerful video, with real people, talking about important things.
Dare to watch. Dare to think.

September 2nd, 2011

ANOTHER Planned Parenthood CLOSES

Ramona Trevino, former manager of a Planned Parenthood facility in Sherman TX witnesses to the power of prayer. National Director of 40 Days for Life, David Bereit is on hand to help celebrate the closing of yet another Planned Parenthood as its manager testifies to the power of prayer in her life, leading her to abandon her job.