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January 31st, 2012


I once had a job as a killer.  Funny, but I never thought of it like that until now, 60 years later.  I had no sooner gotten my job with a pathologist at Argonne National Laboratory in Chicago than I found out I was pregnant.  Very early in the pregnancy I started to bleed and started cry, thinking I had perhaps lost the baby.   That was another funny thing.  Until then I hadn’t realized that at some visceral level I cared about – wanted – that baby.   But – back to the job.

My boss, Dr. Cloudman, was doing experiments studying the effects of various carcinogens on white mice.  The only two carcinogens I remember being involved were methylcholanthrene and yttrium 88.  Part of my job was to examine all the mice in the cages every day and keep a record of tumor growths, making diagrams of tumor locations and size.   When I noticed that a mouse’s ears, usually pink, had turned white, that meant it was bleeding internally and I had to kill it.  It is very easy to kill a mouse.  You just grab its tail, hold the dull edge of your scalpel at the base of its skull, and pull on the tail.  This breaks its neck and you have a dead mouse.

The doctor would then autopsy the mouse and give me tissue samples which I would imbed, section with a microtome, mount on slides and stain.  Doctor would read the slides and record his findings.   I had no idea, then, what he learned from his studies,  but I see from his archives that he moved to Argonne National Laboratory in 1947, the year that I married, and some of his publications are on line.

It did not bother me, to kill a mouse.  It was my job.  Because of this job, I can understand how people can work in an abortion clinic and hardly think about what they are doing.  Its just a job.   Dr. Bernard Nathanson, the narrator in the following video, The Silent Scream, was a killer, too.  As a  gynecologist in New York City he was responsible for thousands of abortions, was founder of the National Abortion Rights Action League, and even aborted his own child. Filmed in 1980, The Silent Scream was ground-breaking in that it showed for the first time, using ultrasound, what goes on during an abortion. Back then ultrasound was a new tool, and grainy compared to today’s ultrasound pictures, but for the first time one could actually see the unborn child quietly moving around in the uterus, then the agitation when it senses invasion of its sanctuary, and then the silent open-mouthed scream in its final agony. And no one is more compentent to talk about it than Dr. Nathanson.

Nathanson finally understood  what really  happens during an abortion, saw hundreds of Operation Rescue people blocking abortion mills, praying and singing, and became the most influential pro-life gynecologist ever. He authored several books describing this journey, became a Christian and then a Catholic. Dr. Nathanson died this past year. May he rest in peace.

June 17th, 2011


I was at the first SUMMER OF MERCY which was held in Wichita KA in 1981. Thousands of pro-lifers traveled to Wichita to protest abortion — and especially the late term abortions for which George Tiller of Wichita was famous. His facility was considered the late term abortion capital of the world.

In 1991 70 local pastors in the Wichita area covenanted to “continue to speak out with urgency until the killing of innocent children is outlawed and Wichita becomes an abortion-free city.” A parade for life was held and it was heartwarming to see the pro-life sentiment in the mid-West, especially as compared with the cold hearts in the northeast United States.

There were, then, three abortuaries in Wichita. Now but one is left, the infamous Women’s Health Care Services run by Mr. Tiller, where women from far and near come to have late term babies “delivered” still-born. (The babies get an injection while in the womb to be sure they are dead on arrival.)

That was twenty years ago. Tiller is dead and his abortuary (sporting its own incinerator) no longer functions. This year the Christian Defense Coalition, headed by the Reverend Pat Mahoney, believes God is issuing a similar call.   Summer of Mercy 2.0, is focusing on Tiller’s successor in the late term abortion busines, LeRoy Carhart, of Germantown, Maryland. It will take place from July 31 through August 2.

Rev. Mahoney writes, “We prayerfully ask that you consider joining us for this historic season of prayerful and prophetic witness for life outside of Washington, D.C. Some of the events will include:

  1. 24/7 prayer right across the street from Carhart’s clinic.
  2. Evening worship and prayer outside of the late-term abortion clinic of Leroy Carhart.
  3. Rallies featuring nationally known speakers and musicians.
  4. Cutting edge public and prophetic events for life.
  5. “Live” ultrasounds of pre-born childrn.
  6. A major media and public education campaign.
  7. Daily morning prayer and liturgy outside of Carhart’s clinic.”

It is our hope that The Summer of Mercy 2.0 will be a spark to help ignite a nationwide spiritual awakening concerning the ‘Culture of Life.’ “

The event is being planned by a coalition of pro-life/pro-family groups, including Operation Rescue, the Christian Defense Coalition, the Maryland Coalition for Life, and several local churches.

If you can’t be there, consider helping — Christian Defense Coalition, P.O. Box 8148, Fredericksburg VA 22404.   You know how these  Christian things happen — lots of prayer, lots of Holy Spirit, and a few dollars.   But a few dollars are needed.

Below a late term abortion is described by the late Dr. Bernard Nathanson.  In the early days of abortion in New York City Dr. Nathanson was responsible for many thousands of abortions.  His book, Aborting America, describes his journey to being an ardent pro-life advocate and a Catholic.


December 24th, 2010


THIS VIDEO IS SO GOOD! There is a movement afoot to shut down crisis pregnancy centers in New York City with Bill 371. Chris Slattery explains here how Expectant Mother Care gives women a REAL choice with life-affirming counseling and material help.

The NYC City Council Intro Bill #371-2010 is an outrage, which targets PRC’s (Pregnancy Resource Centers) with onerous, one-sided, unconstitutional speech regulations, and whopping, cruel and unusually harsh penalties.

These centers primarily provide free options counseling, clothing and material support, and in many cases free ultrasound and prenatal care, which no abortion facility in New York City provides.

This proposed bill would force the centers to advertise on their doors, waiting room walls, and advertisements, to state that they do not perform abortions or provide referrals, distribute FDA-approved contraceptives or provide referrals, and post when a physician is not in house.

The penalties for failure to comply include being shut down for five days after three violations, stiff fines, and JAIL FOR UP TO SIX MONTHS for those who do not comply with the shut-down order.

An inside look at the work of Expectant Mother Care in New York City. No government money is poured into this kind of free service with unpaid volunteers such as goes to Planned Parenthood and its money-making business of killing the unborn, destroying hope as it destroys the next generation.

October 26th, 2009


Did you ever wonder what would make a big-time abortionist give it all up?  Here is an inside look into the lives of  two of them.  Between them they were personally responsible for well over a million abortions!

Stojan Adasevic, who performed 48,000 abortions in former Yugoslavia, is now a pro-life activist in Serbia.   Bernard Nathanson was one of the founders of the National Association for the Repeal of Abortion Laws (NARAL) and personally oversaw 75,000 abortions as director in New York.

Stojan Adasevic
In describing his conversion, Adasevic tells that he  “dreamed about a beautiful field full of children and young people who were playing and laughing, from 4 to 24 years of age, but who ran away from him in fear. A man dressed in a black and white habit stared at him in silence. The dream was repeated each night and he would wake up in a cold sweat. One night he asked the man in black and white who he was. ‘My name is Thomas Aquinas,’ the man in his dream responded. Adasevic, educated in communist schools, had never heard of the Dominican genius saint. He didn’t recognize the name”

“Why don’t you ask me who these children are?” St. Thomas asked Adasevic in his dream.

“They are the ones you killed with your abortions,”  St. Thomas told him.

“Adasevic awoke in amazement and decided not to perform any more abortions,” the article stated.

“That same day a cousin came to the hospital with his four months-pregnant girlfriend, who wanted to get her ninth abortion–something quite frequent in the countries of the Soviet bloc. The doctor agreed. Instead of removing the fetus piece by piece, he decided to chop it up and remove it as a mass. However, the baby’s heart came out still beating. Adasevic realized then that he had killed a human being,”

When Adsevic told the hospital he would no longer perform abortions (something no doctor in the communist Yugoslavia had ever done) “they cut his salary in half, fired his daughter from her job, and did not allow his son to enter the university.”

Sometime later he had another dream in which the man in black and white told him “You are my good friend, keep going.”   St. Thomas had written that he thought human life began 40 days after fertilization and it was Advesic belief that “he wanted to make amends for that error.”

Here is Adasevic’s story once again in a video with beautiful glimpses of pre-born babies:


Bernard Nathanson
Dr. Nathanson, co-founder of NARAL, explained that while working as an abortionist with pro-abortion groups, “We claimed that between five and ten thousand women a year died of botched abortions. …The actual figure was closer to 200 to 300. And we also claimed that there were a million illegal abortions a year in the United States and the actual figure was close to 200,000. So, we were guilty of massive deception.”

The New York Times refused to review Nathanson’s book  Aborting America when it was first released in 1979. The reasons why will be obvious upon reading this eye-opening insider account of the political games that led to the legalization of abortion in America.

In his book Nathanson says he was asked  about aborting his own child:

Did you not feel sad — not only because you had extinguished the life of an unborn child, but, more, because you had destroyed your own child?

I swear to you that I had no feelings aside from the sense of accomplishment, the pride of expertise. On inspecting the contents of the bag I felt only the satisfaction of knowing that I had done a thorough job. You pursue me: You ask if perhaps for a fleeting moment or so I experienced a flicker of regret, a microgram of remorse? No and no. And that, dear reader, is the mentality of the abortionist: another job well done, another demonstration of the moral neutrality of advanced technology in the hands of the amoral.” [pp. 60-61]

And here, a glimpse of Dr. Nathanson: